is this just a game? cuz i don't wanna play, but i think i'm already in

I've seen you twice, in a short time
Only a week since we started
It seems to me, for every time
I'm getting more open-hearted

I was an impossible case
No-one ever could reach me
But I think I can see in your face
There's a lot you can teach me
So I wanna know





What's the name of the game
Does it mean anything to you?
What's the name of the game
Can you feel it the way I do
Tell me please, 'cause I have to know
I'm a bashful child, beginning to grow

And you make me talk
And you make me feel
And you make me show
What I'm trying to conceal
If I trust in you, would you let me down
Would you laugh at me
If I said I care for you
Could you feel the same way too?
I wanna know

The name of the game

NOT MY INTENTION! CUZ THAT CAUGHT MY ATTENTION!

this is kinda the way i'm feeling right now.
NO, i didn't kiss a girl and i liked it lol i just that... ok WHATEVER!
lol anyways...
this was never the way i planned!!!
this situation it's taking out of control!
those red lips are so fucking ... aww!
u know what i'm talking about don't u?

xo'

last night was the worst night ever!

i tried to turn on the TV to get you out of my head
feeling something deep inside that I just won't admit
It's not like I don't wanna commit
I just don't know why I can't stop feeling like this
Tell me Why?
does it hurt so bad Tell me Why?
does it make me mad, now I can see the storm's not gonna clear dressed in my pain and all of my tears

.- Love's great, but when you're not with the person you love IT REALLY SUCKS!

What's next

i felt so bad yesterday for deleting all the posts, but whatever...


don't know why, but lately i've been extra extra weird. My appetite has changed a lot these days, i feel moody, sad and suicide when i get home, THAT'S SO NOT NORMAL IN ME! i love being at home chillin' out and stuff, but now it feels like i need something to fill a hole inside of me. Damn it that means something about someone? oh SHIT i hate feeling like this, but after all is a good feeling right? i don't know what am i gonna do, i want to cry so badly
I NEED SOMETHING BUT DON'T KNOW WHAT!!
whatever, i think i won't talk again about the "I'M IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE I SHOULDN'T BE" problem cuz it's so WEIRD! fuck! i have to find another word! whatever, i've finally made my mind, and yeah i think i like that person but i don't know if i'm just IN LOVE WITH THAT PERSON or is just an OBSESSION, goddamn man! i'm talking about the problem now LOL
Anyways, i'll let the current flow by itself...
To that person i like, this song is perfect, cuz it talks about how i feel (i think i've heard that before LOL)


My heart by Paramore

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone

Stay with me, this is what I need, please?

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope

This time I will be listening.

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
(My heart, it beats for you)

This heart, it beats, beats for only you (It beats, beats for only you)
My heart is yours (My heart is yours)

This heart, it beats, beats for only you (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
My heart, my heart is yours (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)

(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours
(Please don't go, please don't fade away)
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is...

i hate this stupid obsession!

i make them good girls go bad
i make them good girls go ...
i know ur type
yeah daddy's little girl
just take a bite
let me shake up ur world
cuz just one night couldn't be so wrong
i'm gonna make u loose control
she was so shy
til i drove her wild

CHORUS:
i make them good girls go bad
i make them good girls go bad
u were hanging in the corner with ur 5 best friends
u heard that i was trouble but u couldn't resist
i make them good girls go bad
i make them good girls go...

i know ur type
boy ur dangerous
yeah ur that guy
i'd be stupid to trust
but just one night couldn't be so wrong
u make me wanna loose control
she was so shy
til i drove her wild

CHORUS:
i make them good girls go bad
i make them good girls go bad
i was hanging in the corner with my 5 best friends
i heard that u were trouble but i couldn't resist
i make them good girls go bad
i make them good girls go...

oh
she got a way with the boys in the place
treat em like they don't stand a chance

and he got a way with the girls in the back
actin' like they're too hot to dance

yeah she got a way with the boys in the place
treat em like they don't stand a chance

and he got a way with the girls in the back
actin' like they're too hot to dance

i make them good girls go bad
i make them good girls go, them good girls go bad
yeah!
i was hanging in the corner with my 5 best friends
i heard that u were trouble but i couldn't resist
i make them good girls go bad
i make them good girls go bad
i make them good girls go...

good girls go bad
good girls go...

Good morning sunshine ♥

When the sun is up,
on a clear blue sky,
you will act like a lover
When the sky is grey,
and the rain comes down,
you will run for cover

Feel the heat, come out of cold,
and your arm is touching me

Good morning sunshine,
you're my only light
lying with me by my side,
you keep me warm all day
Just stay with me

Good morning sunshine,
be with me all day
Just don't let the rain pass you by
When it's cloudy and windy
and the snowflakes arrive,
you somehow just make me,
make me feel I'm alive

When you leave my field
then you light the stars
Fading away in horizon
there's a million streets
leading off the night,
waiting for sun to be risen

Feel the heat, come out of cold,
and your arm is touching me
Good morning sunshine,
you're my only light,
lying with me by my side,
you keep me warm all day
Just stay with me

Good morning sunshine,
be with me all day
Just don't let the rain pass you by
When it's cloudy and windy
and the snowflakes arrive,
you somehow just make me,
make me feel I'm alive

Hold it right there,
let me take a minute of your time,
to explain how I feel through these rhymes
I do the best I can, and believe me if I could
I'll build you a paradise with these two hands
the touch of your skin, makes my body go numb,
I'm thinking to myself, if my dream come true,
or is it 'cause you never give me a chance to tell you
how I feel, the moments we had were too precious to kill.

When it is cloudy and windy,
please turn your face at me

Good morning sunshine,
you're my only light,
lying with me by my side,
you keep me warm all day
Just stay with me

Good morning sunshine,
be with me all day,
Just don't let the rain pass you by,
when it is cloudy and windy
and the snowflakes arrive,
you somhow just make me,
make me feel I'm alive
make me feel I'm alive...

This is how my life HAS to end right now!

Standing here, listening to one of the most hurtful song ever i'm thinking about if i'm crazy or just maybe i'm not, the first alternative is quite true for me, but i don't know.
I constantly have this HUGE 'inside of me' battle, yeah deeply inside of me.
As i said in the last entry i've been building a huge shelter in this SOMEONE. And this someone has been part of my life so much time ago that now i see that someone as some kind of angel, IT'S SO WEIRD! and i hate doin' this to myself, my unconscious other me tells me that I'M COMPLETELY IN LOVE WITH THIS SOMEONE, but! my other conscious part of me says that IT'S JUST CRUSH or maybe i'm misundertanding signals, Whatever... the point is...
WHAT THE FUCK AM I GONNA DO? no clue!! of course.
i don't want to play with myself AGAIN, creating fairytales in my head, THEN when i comeback to reality i'm a FUCKING MESS! this is so sad. AM I GOING CRAZY OR SOMETHING?
hope this huge drama inside of me ends, but the stupid part of this is that I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN! damn it!is so FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING STUPID!

HELP ME! I'M CRAZY
i MUST disappear from earth!

.- Sunday

Another fight with myself, HUGE DRAMA! and i can't talk about it! DAMN!

So, i've recently built a shelter in 'THIS' and my 'SELF' is so confused and i think this is taking out of control. so that, i will post this song cuz describes everything i felt right now!
from The Used ♥ this song's called BLUE AND YELLOW

(it's feels so stupid talking to myself, but i'm soo used to it)

**

And it's all in how you mix the two
And it starts just where the light exists
It's a feeling that you cannot miss
And it burns a hole through everyone that feels it

Well you're never gonna find it
If you're looking for it
Won't come your way
Well you'll never find it
If you're looking for it

Should've done something but I've done it enough
By the way your hands were shaking
Rather waste some time with you

And you never would have thought in the end
How amazing it feels just to live again
It's a feeling that you cannot miss
It burns a hole through everyone that feels it

Well you're never gonna find it
If you're looking for it
Won't come your way
Well you'll never find it
If you're looking for it

Should've done something but I've done it enough
By the way your hands were shaking
Rather waste some time with you

Should've said something but I've said it enough
By the way my words were faded
Rather waste some time with you

Waste some time with you
Waste some time with you
Waste some time with you
Waste some time with you
Waste some time with you

Should've done something but I've done it enough
By the way your hands were shaking
Rather waste my time with you

Should've said something but I've said it enough
By the way my words were faded
Rather waste my time with you

Should've done something but I've done it enough
By the way my hands were shaking
Rather waste some time with you

Waste some time with you
Waste some time with you
Waste some time with you
Waste some time with you
Waste some time with you
Waste some time with you
Waste some time with you

[whispering:]
Should've done something but I've done it enough
By the way your hands were shaking
Rather waste some time with you