My life as a beautiful song
Noone knows how you feel
Noone there you'd like to see
The day was dark and full of pain
You write help with your own blood
'Cause hope is all you've got
You open up you eyes
But nothings changed
I don't want to cause you trouble
Don't wanna stay too long
I just came here to say to you
Turn around, I am here
If you want it's me you'll see
Doesn't count, far or near
I can hold you when you reach for me
Your life is meaningless
Your diary full of trash
It's so hard to get along with empty hands
You're looking for the rainbow
But it died not long ago
It tried to shine just for you
Until the end
I don't want to cause you trouble
Don't wanna stay too long
I just came here to say to you
I am by your side
Just for a little while
Turn around, I am here
If you want it's me you'll see
Doesn't count, far or near
I can hold you when you reach for me
If the world makes you confused
And your senses you seem to lose
If the storm doesn't want to diffuse
And you just don't know what to do
Look around, I am here
Doesn't count far or near
I am by your side
Just for a little while
Turn around
Turn around, I am here
Turn around
Doesn't count, far or near
Turn around
If you want it's me you'll see
Turn around
I can hold you when you reach for me
Turn around, I am here
Doesn't count, far or near
I am by your side
Just for a little while
We'll make it if we try
.- Thanks to Tokio Hotel who wrote those amazing lyrics
This is how my life HAS to end right now!
Standing here, listening to one of the most hurtful song ever i'm thinking about if i'm crazy or just maybe i'm not, the first alternative is quite true for me, but i don't know.
I constantly have this HUGE 'inside of me' battle, yeah deeply inside of me.
As i said in the last entry i've been building a huge shelter in this SOMEONE. And this someone has been part of my life so much time ago that now i see that someone as some kind of angel, IT'S SO WEIRD! and i hate doin' this to myself, my unconscious other me tells me that I'M COMPLETELY IN LOVE WITH THIS SOMEONE, but! my other conscious part of me says that IT'S JUST CRUSH or maybe i'm misundertanding signals, Whatever... the point is...
WHAT THE FUCK AM I GONNA DO? no clue!! of course.
i don't want to play with myself AGAIN, creating fairytales in my head, THEN when i comeback to reality i'm a FUCKING MESS! this is so sad. AM I GOING CRAZY OR SOMETHING?
hope this huge drama inside of me ends, but the stupid part of this is that I DON'T WANT THAT TO HAPPEN! damn it!is so FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING STUPID!
HELP ME! I'M CRAZY
i MUST disappear from earth!
.- Sunday
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